overwhelmed.

Services with Dr A.R Bernard and Pastor How was mindblowing, still in the midst of digesting this spiritual food.
True humility!

Everything simply wow-ed me.
and sunday's d class with mae ann was awesome, getting connected with Pastors.
the way they live their lives - how they would put others first, sacrifices, love, how they do things.
It's really awesome and i'm really proud to be in hoGc in the time having Pastor How & Pastor Lia as my pastors.
It's really a priviledge and more people are going to experience this as well!

taking love up to another level.
i really wanna be like my Pastors, like how John and Peter would always want to be like Jesus and follow him.
FOLLOWSHIP! (:

goodnights people,
a truly happy day .

a girl, she wasn't doing well in school
her boyfriend broke up with her
her bestfriend was moving out of town
she was absolutely in despair and upset.

She walked into the kitchen and her mother asked her
"would like a piece of chocolate cake?"
"yes mum, i would love a slice of the cake you've baked"
her mother hands out a bottle of cooking oil "here, have some"
"eew, that's disgusting"
her mother handed to her some dried flowers
"ew, no"
"how about some baking soda?"

"mum, those are all disgusting"
"yes daughter, all of these are yucky by itself but when they are put together, they become a delicious baked cake"
The problems that are happening is like all the ingredients by itself, but when they are put together - a nice result is produced.

when we meet with life problems, people usually retreat.
My old mindset was the same as well, when i meet with problems, i retreat.
i don't want to face it - facing it would hurt myself even more.

But it's wrong, it's a wrong way of thinking. When we meet in a problem, we should face it upfront - for God is facing this war together with us.
God is dying to give us a miracle, when our hearts are open; when we do His Word.
Remaining faithful through every single thing that happens.

I'm in the midst of changing - we have nothing to fear.
remember that we have nothing to fear.

Run Baby, Run. I've got to go - and you've got to come along
Don't look back while you are running, don't give them a chance, don't sell your heart


Resistence
Rejection
Loneliness
Temptations
Discouragement

The level our spirit is in, we can no longer remain at. I must keep on walking with God and expand in capacity and changing my train of thoughts constantly.
No one is perfect, but we are all perfected in God's image.

We get rejected more than ever when we became Christians, they could not understand why we could so fervent for God; why we are doing so much in church and spending so much time in church.
From a part, sometimes it evolves into apart. A PART to APART

Loneliness, something from insecurities within.
I used to feel terribly neglected and emo if i had to go somewhere al by myself. If i had to travel to places long distances away alone.
But when i had God in my life, tables turned. I was never lonely anymore. I might be alone at times, but i never was i once feeling lonely.
No longer thinking that no one gives a hoot, but i know that God is faithful to us till the ends if we remain faithful.

Temptations; as a youth.
Money. Worldly possessions. Titles. Love. Boyfriend/Girlfriend. Lies
we can be tempted easily, especially when there are pits everywhere.
We are like young children holding our parents hand while walking in a sea of shoppers and suddenly, we let go of our hands for a short while; distracted by ice-cream, by toys, by all sorts of things. But at the turn of our head, we could no longer find the hand that we were holding and would panic - Drowning

We are the young children, and God is our Father holding our hand. Sometimes, we get distracted and the ice-cream, toys and other things are the temptations that make us let go of our Father's hand and walk towards it. At times, we would turn our heads after minutes to look for our parents, other times, we might be distracted for hours.
The minutes would mean we would miss God after we strayed and fell into temptations, while hours would mean that we took quite awhile.
But our parents always loves us no matter what. and God, our Father is love! :D

There might be times while we feel down and discouraged. For me, i would just let God deal with it.
I know i have people around me who love me dearly and pull me up when i'm down.
Jesus is always with me, and he is with you too! (:

I cannot deny. It's love.

Today was a long day, but it was my most fruitful day this week (:
Literally rolled myself out of bed to get out, but after which i was really freshened up. i love praying early morning (:
School-ed till 12plus, went with some RP-ians to meet Roy for NewGen meeting.
What Roy shared was really important !
It was great! (: Missed presentation time, so went to library with Zach and Jon xD

Went back class for the wrapping up, got my stuff and left the class to find Jon, printed things.
Headed off to church after suling came.
Hangout & worship session, God came so strongly! This week is really super powerful!

Followed for Christine's followup, learnt a lot through it and through the day.
4 hours of sleep the day before, trying hard to keep awake now.
Just a little bit more, complete the slide and i can sleep in peace.

I just dont like leaving things undone when i know it's needed soon

Second time watching it, but it made me tear.
Jesus went through so much and laid down His life for us, He was sinless - but He carried the weight of all our sins upon His shoulders.
Peter denied three times before the rooster crowed, it really relates back.
When we face persecutions, when we meet with problem & obstacles. Will we still be 100% for Jesus ?
Sad to say, there will be some who would deny Him under circumstances.

But for me, i have never doubted my convictions and have a pre-made decision that i would never deny Jesus in my life.
He really went throught the unimaginable for all of us, and He NEVER once doubted God.

After the movie was a short worship session, for only about 30 minutes.
But it was really great, the presence of God was super strong and every single one just worshiped and prayed like they never did.
I could just feel a breakthrough in spirit for many in the room and the expanding of all our hearts to love people.
Loving people who love us. Loving people who curse us. Loving people who hates us. Loving people who are unlovable.
For if we only love those who love us, what difference is there between us and those who are not filled with Christ?
For if we only love those who love us, what reward would there be for?

On the land ...
A famine, not one that is lack of food
A famine, not one that is lack of drinks
But a famine, that is lacking the Word of God.

The people will hunger for the Word, they will thirst for the Word of God.

After a great weekend, yesterday was much slower paced day.

Completed eLearning at home, spent time with mummy.
Headed out to YYC for hangout with the leaders (:
the children there are really adorable, it really lifts up spirits when you see them running around and playing.

Wei Bin & Wei Xiang was the the funniest of the bunch.
Wei Xiang went around hitting all the guys -uh - behinds. HAHA!
Wei Bin sat on Christopher shoulders, than Jonathan bearbacked him around.
( awwww, heart melts )

It was a great time spent with everyone (:
8plus plus, Jonathan and i left to meet the rest at AMK for Transformer 2